pussykeepcallin

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 02:11:58 GMT

add me right now!
new lj!
new lj!
friends only!

thisawkwardsaw_

add it add it add it!

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 16:20:17 GMT

i am really hurting so bad right now. i wish i could just take a pill and delete him from my life. like he never happened. i would give anything. i want to move and just forget about this. i have this constant heartache and i dont know what to do with myself. it's the hardest thing in the world and i dont thin i can put up wiht it much longer. i just want to go away for a while. but no matter where i go i'll just hurt as worse. knowing that he doesn't care and that he's talking to some other girl just hurts worse. it's like a bullet to the head. except that is much quicker.

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 03:21:27 GMT

umm. i'm so fucking tired of a lot of people. so fucking tired.

i'm wearing a burberry hat :)

today was me and patricks 6 month anniversary. it could've been better.

i got caught cheating on a test. i'm failing biology.

i love acoustic matt skiba.

i hate being so god damn jealous. everyone is a threat to me.

i love candace and will help her out any time she needs it.

sam and christine are my best friends/ sisters

i miss lauren so much. hopefully i will see her very soon :)

whitney lives too far away

i also miss shelley, even tho she doesn't read this.

ben kweller keeps my heart beating. as does the starting line.

sometimes i wish i could kill people and get away with it.

i'm sick of menstruation!!!!!!!!

etid, terror, and bury your dead will be fun. i'm excited about that.

i need to lose some lbs.

i want to have a baby boy and name him aiden.

fuck my life

remember morrissey? cheep cheep

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 03:22:49 GMT

i am so pissed at carrie for cheating on aiden with big!
if i were her i'd never forgive myself!

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 03:18:55 GMT

i had fun tonight! i got to see my baby, hangout with candace, see my dad, get money, get starbucks, try on costumes, be happy, now i feel like a zombie!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:54:49 GMT

i just got home. i'm about to hangout with candace.

i am listening to donculis. it's weird that i can be home and hear them. i love it. i love patrick so much. he's one of the only people in the world that make me truely happy. tomorrow is our 6 month anniversary. it feels like a long time, but at the same time, not long at all. weird. i hope to have many more anniversarys with him.

in other news, i hate school and everyone in it. i hope it burns down to the ground one day i'm absent :) especailly the people in my art class :)

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 00:28:23 GMT

today i saw a video that brought back a whole lot of memories.

i wish i could put into words how much i miss the way things were 2 years ago.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 17:41:44 GMT

christine and i broke edge last night. pictures later.

the band that keeps my heart beating.....

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 20:20:41 GMT

"Saddest Girl Story"

So it's safe to say that we've been here before;
Heart torn out, down for the count and still come back for more.
This lesson is learned too well.
Though, only unlearned by the time your wounds have healed.
Have you had enough?
I guess not because your lips are stuck to his.
It's Time to say enough is enough, you would be so better off.
You love him but tough because it's not coming back from him.
You can't win.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
It only hurts at first.
But then you will find someone to give you everything you want.
Try not to go running back to him.
So it goes unsaid that we've been here before.
Lonely nights and endless fights and sleeping on the floor.
And he's sorry, so the story goes.
It's read and replayed and ends the same way
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 17:52:41 GMT

some ugly fat girl told me i had a "jay leno" chin on some community.

what the fuck

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 03:37:11 GMT

tonight me and my baby went to a seminar at u of m. it was interesting, but boring as hell because it was so long. friday night we celebrate our 6 month anniversary! i've really never been happier. things aren't going to good as far as some things go. the only things i have going for me are my very few close friends, and him. and i'm so happy i have them in my life.

i would post a pic but its not loading!!!!!!!

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 01:59:51 GMT

i do not like being lied to.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 02:44:12 GMT

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 18:58:39 GMT

i look like derek zoolander cuz i didn't know i was taking the pic!

xtine, me, and melissa in the bathroom.

kissing melissa

a pretty disgusting pic

paul's weird

YELLOW SHIRT! QUICKSILVER! zisson

jason :)

we were wearing the same shirt. haha

renee and alex

this would be cute if i didnt have bad acne

my favorite picture!

:)

emo christino

yellow shirt! quicksilver!

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 04:47:36 GMT

fuck christines dad, my mom, and any other person that has fucking up their life because of their stupid drinking.
my mother is staggering around my house drunk, and there's nothing i can do about it. when i was 10 years old she almost killed me in a car accident. the broke 3 ribs and her lung collapsed. she had a DUI for 6 months. you think some people would learn from their mistakes, learn that they're hurting people they love.
well she didn't learn a fucking thing.

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 03:46:35 GMT

ive got a big fat fuckin bone to pick with you, my darling.
in case you haven't heard i'm sick and tired of trying.
i wish you would take my radio to bathe with you
plugged in and ready to fall.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 03:37:26 GMT

today on the way to patricks house, his ex girlfriend allie was driving right next to us. it kind of made me want to put a hun in my mouth and pull the trigger because she's tall, thin, blonde, and beautiful. and i'm short, thick, and average. then i saw a pic of them kissing and every time i think about it i want to barf. i'll probably have nightmares about it tonight..

on the brightside...
MY MOM FOUND MY MOTHERFUCKING BURBERRY THAT IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR FOR MONTHS! I SERIOUSLY CRIED WHEN SHE GAVE IT TO ME!

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:42:37 GMT

i had no energy today. i feel like someone died or something. i just feel emotionless. my eyes don't hurt anymore. neither do my hands. i'm glad we're all recovering nicely. i feel terrible for the kid that will be having surgery tomorrow because his lung collapsed from the pepper spray. i hate that this happened so much, but things could've been so much worse.

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 06:05:43 GMT

a big fucking FUCK YOU goes out to the security guard that pepper sprayed the entire audience at the complex during the last song of He Is Legend tonight. i love every single one of you guys that helped me out in any way, and I hope you're all alright. what happened tonight is serioulsy a wake up call. there are evil things in this world, but together we can pull through all of it.
i love you guys.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 21:27:52 GMT

i hate being thick.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 03:45:44 GMT

this weekend was good! on friday, me and lauren rode down to Martin, TN for the donculis show. we got hit on by a guy named "Thumper" and i led an old woman to believe i'm 21. saturday, me and lauren woke up and when downstairs. her dad told us we looked haggard as fuck. we ate chinese and went on a shopping binge. then christine and sam came over. we ate some more and went to trilogy. i got my second holes pierced and a ring for my nose. today me, lauren, and christine went to flashback and tried on cute dresses. and tonight i got to see my patrick! i love him so much!

NIPPLEZ!
sweaty, ugly, fat. my hairs messed up too.
~*~EMONESS~*~
lauren.. my big sister and cutest girl in the world!
me and my dad!

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 16:37:58 GMT

sam left early this morning. too early.
lauren and chrissy are still sleeping.
i have a sore on the inside of my mouth. it hurts.
my ears hurt because i got them pierced last night. my nose hurts because i got a ring put in it.
girls night last night. it was fun.

here are some pics of me without makeup!!!!

join this fucking sommunity.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 21:55:28 GMT

kahblow

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 22:56:47 GMT

i got my mom to take me up to trilogy and they ordered a motherfuckinggoddamn fishtail instead of a flat back.

i hope i get to go to martin tomorrow.

i better start my period soon, i hate cramping!!!!!!!!

the new 3 6 mafia cd is cool and so is the dvd!

i love christine sam lauren and candace!

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 03:59:41 GMT

i have a 33 in biology

and i'm failing art just because i can't draw. i do my work and everything. that shit is lame.

i've had a constant headache all day, and i'm pretty sure as soon as i lay my head on the pillow, i'll be out for about 10 hours.

but overall i've been pretty happy lately, so that's cool :)

the fair is over rated. so is washing your hair everyday. hahaha